Final Year: Journey To An End Begins - I
Hello Once Again,
So Now I am in my final year of Btech. This long journey is soon coming to an end. I am not sure if I reached the destination I had decided when I entered the college but I will be carrying a lot of memories for sure.
Today, I am feeling lonely and sad so writing. This semester didn't start as I had expected. I thought it would be fun to be in final year but till now I don't think things are going the way I planned. I came to college on 21st July and my registration was on 23rd. My classes started on 24th. I the beginning I was feeling a lot confident but slowly my confidence level is going down.
This semester I find myself a lot lonely as compared to before. Some of my friends have different professional electives (subjects) which are not same as what I have opted. So some of us got separated. I really don't like changes a lot. Also, the one thing I used to enjoy was my lab because my lab group was so casual. We never cared about the experiment we were working on, just passing time and gossiping. But this year lab group is changed too. Labs are not very hectic as previous years and neither are classes. The one thing which is hectic is placements. I however am not much interested in siting in placements but seeing others make me want to sit for placements. So I applied for a few companies and got rejected in each and every company. I couldn't even clear the first round.
Almost everyone is worried and preparing for placements. Nothing is same as before. I have a very few friends. Once again, contacts are different from friends. Friends are people who you like to hangout with or like to have a casual and informal conversation with. But contacts are people who you stick with for your own selfish needs.
This semester I have talked to very few friends. And some of the friends which I had before seem to be moving far away from me. I know I look ignorant, not because I am, its just because of my appearance maybe. I have a poker face. I only have two expressions: Angry and sad. So it's okay when people say that I look angry or sad. But I don't know when I become rude.(omitted and updated) I really should focus more on my words so that it doesn't hurt people. I will surely take care of it in the future.
So good bye for now.
So this way you can see, nothing is going well so far. I hope everything becomes fine soon. But my life is like this only. I feel depressed and sad. This is the beginning of final year, I hope the end is better than this.
So Now I am in my final year of Btech. This long journey is soon coming to an end. I am not sure if I reached the destination I had decided when I entered the college but I will be carrying a lot of memories for sure.
Today, I am feeling lonely and sad so writing. This semester didn't start as I had expected. I thought it would be fun to be in final year but till now I don't think things are going the way I planned. I came to college on 21st July and my registration was on 23rd. My classes started on 24th. I the beginning I was feeling a lot confident but slowly my confidence level is going down.
This semester I find myself a lot lonely as compared to before. Some of my friends have different professional electives (subjects) which are not same as what I have opted. So some of us got separated. I really don't like changes a lot. Also, the one thing I used to enjoy was my lab because my lab group was so casual. We never cared about the experiment we were working on, just passing time and gossiping. But this year lab group is changed too. Labs are not very hectic as previous years and neither are classes. The one thing which is hectic is placements. I however am not much interested in siting in placements but seeing others make me want to sit for placements. So I applied for a few companies and got rejected in each and every company. I couldn't even clear the first round.
Almost everyone is worried and preparing for placements. Nothing is same as before. I have a very few friends. Once again, contacts are different from friends. Friends are people who you like to hangout with or like to have a casual and informal conversation with. But contacts are people who you stick with for your own selfish needs.
This semester I have talked to very few friends. And some of the friends which I had before seem to be moving far away from me. I know I look ignorant, not because I am, its just because of my appearance maybe. I have a poker face. I only have two expressions: Angry and sad. So it's okay when people say that I look angry or sad. But I don't know when I become rude.(omitted and updated) I really should focus more on my words so that it doesn't hurt people. I will surely take care of it in the future.
So good bye for now.
So this way you can see, nothing is going well so far. I hope everything becomes fine soon. But my life is like this only. I feel depressed and sad. This is the beginning of final year, I hope the end is better than this.
