Final year part 11.2: The depression Rejoined
Hey friends once again.
So today I am feeling quite down and a bit sad. One reason is boredom and the other one can't trll you. It is a bit personal but related to my past. I always had inferiority complex and have gone through depression once. The awful thing is that it comes again and again.
Well so I am in Cuttack right now and bored as hell. Corona virus is spreading all over the world. In this city there is no such case till now but we should be aware. Being at home is extremely boring. If I would be staying alone in this hoish then I could have thought of getting out of boredom and do things as per my will. But we'll, I am not alone. That's the reason I like my hostel more than my home.
Just imagine what I said, I like hostel more than my home. Just opposite to what I used to think in my first year. You can see how I have changed now and I think it is a positive change.
Things aren't really going the way I want to at this very moment. I am bit sad and angry. No idea what I should do. But I am happy that I have some friends who remember me occasionally and this keeps me a bit busy and also a but happy. I kind of have started hating going to home or staying at home. Really and I don't know why. It is just as it is. In my hostel I feel free but in home there are various constraints. I feel more confident and comfortable at my hostel.
College is closed till 31st, this is what I have heard. And see, just one month will be remaining after I go back to college (unless semester is extended). And then my college life is over. I don't know whether I should be sad or excited about this. I sometimes feel that only my life is difficult. Yes I know everyone has a difficult life. Everyone faces problems. I have considered all these and still I feel that my life has most of the problems and that to unsolvable ones. I really am losing all my confidence right now. So I think I would stop now and write again pretty soon.
Bye and good night.
So today I am feeling quite down and a bit sad. One reason is boredom and the other one can't trll you. It is a bit personal but related to my past. I always had inferiority complex and have gone through depression once. The awful thing is that it comes again and again.
Well so I am in Cuttack right now and bored as hell. Corona virus is spreading all over the world. In this city there is no such case till now but we should be aware. Being at home is extremely boring. If I would be staying alone in this hoish then I could have thought of getting out of boredom and do things as per my will. But we'll, I am not alone. That's the reason I like my hostel more than my home.
Just imagine what I said, I like hostel more than my home. Just opposite to what I used to think in my first year. You can see how I have changed now and I think it is a positive change.
Things aren't really going the way I want to at this very moment. I am bit sad and angry. No idea what I should do. But I am happy that I have some friends who remember me occasionally and this keeps me a bit busy and also a but happy. I kind of have started hating going to home or staying at home. Really and I don't know why. It is just as it is. In my hostel I feel free but in home there are various constraints. I feel more confident and comfortable at my hostel.
College is closed till 31st, this is what I have heard. And see, just one month will be remaining after I go back to college (unless semester is extended). And then my college life is over. I don't know whether I should be sad or excited about this. I sometimes feel that only my life is difficult. Yes I know everyone has a difficult life. Everyone faces problems. I have considered all these and still I feel that my life has most of the problems and that to unsolvable ones. I really am losing all my confidence right now. So I think I would stop now and write again pretty soon.
Bye and good night.
