Final Year Part 11.3: Just Casual
Hey friends,
Today I am just writing casually. I've been feeling a bit lonely today. Yes, specially today only. It was quiet boring. I Watched a movie called "Vampires suck" which I rented for 120 rupees from youtube. And except this everything was very much boring. I kind of want a sudden change in my life.
You know what, when I came to Jaipur from himachal pradesh after my father got transferred, there was this sudden change in my life. Like an impulse. It was a negative one and had negative effects on my life. But it was exciting too. Not in a great way Obviously. Well, I had no friends for nearly 2 years and also I used to spend a lot of time surfing on internet. This made me very much Asocial which I still feel. But okay, that was phase of life.
Similarly, When I came to my college from Jaipur, It was also a completely new phase for me. That also changed me a bit. I grew up to be a bit more confident and a bit less homesick. I kind of now like to live in my hostel only. I don't want to go to home. Yes, you heard it right. I know I shouldn't say this. But really, hostel life is the best according to me.
As in my previous so many posts, I have been saying that I really want my college life to be over soon. Not because I don't enjoy it, but I actually am fed up of a few things now. I wish I could live my hostel life again from the very beginning so that I could change a lot in it. I really wish that. But now I get how precious time can be. And once gone, you can't bring time or any of your precious moments back. So since I can't go back in time and change some things hence I just want this phase to be over soon. And guess what, Corona outbreak happened coincidentally. Its not like I am happy to say this. I also don't want this and really hope that it is over soon. But yes atleast I am far from college for a certain time. When I go back, most probably only a few last time moments will be there. And then the college life is over just like this. This year 2020 is strange. Quite strange. See corona outbreak. I didn't get what I really wished for during my initial years which is PSUs. I now am not much interested in PSUs. I want to go to some city, Bangalore may be and see what happens next. I really hope that the next phase goes well. Please pray for me for the same. I am really worried. See, I have seen my worst years and also some of my best years. I don't want to see anything even worse than that. It is okay it the coming years are not better than the best but atleast if they are just not worse, I am find with that.
I know on reading all this above, you might be thinking "this guy is crazy and completely depressed". And yes, I kind of am. I just hope the next phase goes better than expected. So now I don't know how to spend my rest of the days without being much bored. I don't really have a lot of friends to talk to all the time. And also I forgot to bring some movies or series this time. I have some old movies which I am watching again. And youtube is always there.
I am actually not sure if the college reopens after 31st. if the date extends, It is good as well as bad for me. Good because again, I will be going to college a bit late which means less time spent in college. And i will be less fed up. And bad because I will have to stay here and become more and more bored. Actually, going to college would be best. So I think I would like to change my above answer, It would just be bad of the college doesn't repoen after 31st. Let's hope everything goes well. Thats what I have been hoping for all my life and still nothing goes as expected. Some weird things just happen in my life. I really have written a lot this time. I will write again soon.
Bye
Today I am just writing casually. I've been feeling a bit lonely today. Yes, specially today only. It was quiet boring. I Watched a movie called "Vampires suck" which I rented for 120 rupees from youtube. And except this everything was very much boring. I kind of want a sudden change in my life.
You know what, when I came to Jaipur from himachal pradesh after my father got transferred, there was this sudden change in my life. Like an impulse. It was a negative one and had negative effects on my life. But it was exciting too. Not in a great way Obviously. Well, I had no friends for nearly 2 years and also I used to spend a lot of time surfing on internet. This made me very much Asocial which I still feel. But okay, that was phase of life.
Similarly, When I came to my college from Jaipur, It was also a completely new phase for me. That also changed me a bit. I grew up to be a bit more confident and a bit less homesick. I kind of now like to live in my hostel only. I don't want to go to home. Yes, you heard it right. I know I shouldn't say this. But really, hostel life is the best according to me.
As in my previous so many posts, I have been saying that I really want my college life to be over soon. Not because I don't enjoy it, but I actually am fed up of a few things now. I wish I could live my hostel life again from the very beginning so that I could change a lot in it. I really wish that. But now I get how precious time can be. And once gone, you can't bring time or any of your precious moments back. So since I can't go back in time and change some things hence I just want this phase to be over soon. And guess what, Corona outbreak happened coincidentally. Its not like I am happy to say this. I also don't want this and really hope that it is over soon. But yes atleast I am far from college for a certain time. When I go back, most probably only a few last time moments will be there. And then the college life is over just like this. This year 2020 is strange. Quite strange. See corona outbreak. I didn't get what I really wished for during my initial years which is PSUs. I now am not much interested in PSUs. I want to go to some city, Bangalore may be and see what happens next. I really hope that the next phase goes well. Please pray for me for the same. I am really worried. See, I have seen my worst years and also some of my best years. I don't want to see anything even worse than that. It is okay it the coming years are not better than the best but atleast if they are just not worse, I am find with that.
I know on reading all this above, you might be thinking "this guy is crazy and completely depressed". And yes, I kind of am. I just hope the next phase goes better than expected. So now I don't know how to spend my rest of the days without being much bored. I don't really have a lot of friends to talk to all the time. And also I forgot to bring some movies or series this time. I have some old movies which I am watching again. And youtube is always there.
I am actually not sure if the college reopens after 31st. if the date extends, It is good as well as bad for me. Good because again, I will be going to college a bit late which means less time spent in college. And i will be less fed up. And bad because I will have to stay here and become more and more bored. Actually, going to college would be best. So I think I would like to change my above answer, It would just be bad of the college doesn't repoen after 31st. Let's hope everything goes well. Thats what I have been hoping for all my life and still nothing goes as expected. Some weird things just happen in my life. I really have written a lot this time. I will write again soon.
Bye
