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Final Year part 11.8: Towards The End

Hey friends, we are meeting after a really really long time. I know, i've been a bit busy. Yeah it sounds crazy I know. Who stays busy in lockdown. Seriously, I have no idea what to say.
So about the title first, I have a news which I would be sharing by at the end of today's post. But since we haven't talked since a pretty long time so I would first share all that happened during this time.

I basically have no words left to explain how hopeless and lonely I am feeling right now. Although some friends of mine talk to me sometimes. I play Ludo even usually before going to bed at night with my college friends. I have a very good and old friend who talks to me almost everyday. But inspite of all this I feel like something is really missing. Since the last few vacations, I know this isn't one but still, this is the most boring one. I just want this corona shit to be over as soon as possible. It practically ruined my whole plan for the year. It was an important year for me and my plans. But I don't think plans are being executed as I had thought.

In my previous vacations, something special always happened to me. Exactly an year before, in the summer of 2019 when I was in Ropar, pursuing my internship, it was a pretty good time. It was also boring but many interesting things happened. But this time nothing interesting is happening. Honestly saying, I am not at all happy. I am completely numb right now. I can't feel a thing.

About my college. Well, that is why this blog was created in the first place. So basically, our end semester exams were cancelled and instead an online grand viva was conducted and thesis has to be submitted before 1st June. I still can't believe, its been over 2 months, I am living in this jail of boredom. So my viva was completed on 18th may. Don't ask how it went. It wasn't pretty good. But I expected worse. So it is okay. I have almost completed my thesis and also submitted the first draft to my professor. He told me to rectify the mistakes he mentioned. I have rectified some, others I will do tomorrow. I have also submitted my poster presentation. So college work is over and college is done. This way my eighth and the last semester comes to an end.

I am feeling so miserable right now. I had started learning Machine learning online. It is on a halt for now because of all the college work. But I will continue soon. I have completed till the regression part. I had also started a psychology course if you remember and guess what, I have left it incomplete. I don't feel like studying it really. I keep getting messages from that website like "Do you really want to complete this course" as if it is some human who's taunting me.

I have a lot of things to say. Because it's been a long time. I have written some poems and two stories till now. I am not a pro, just a noob but still I feel that I have done a good job. I spent most of my time watching series and anime and movies and all. Let me name some:
Vampire dairies, money heist, Pataallok, Asur, 5 milimeters per second, extraction, extinction, the darkest hour, not another teen movie, jhonny english, in the rain (I guess), Vampire sucks, ant boy, superhero movie and many more. some telgue movies, anime and a lot. I know I wasted all this time but what else can I do.

I really have got very few good friends. Also I am not at home right now. There's no one who calls me or talks to me a lot. I know I am shy and introvert too. So problem is on my side as well. So that's the reason why I am feeling lonely. Tomorrow I have to complete the thesis. Atleast I am planning to. Let's see what happens.

So this is the end of this post. I told you in the beginning that I will share a news. Well, the news is pretty obvious, Since the college is over, I have to end this blog soon. This wasn't how I thought I would end it. Also I am a bit confused when to end it. Because practically, I still have to go to college to bring all my belongings but also at the same time I feel that I should end it. Because it was kind of a commitment that this blog will only updated till my college is over. And actually my college is over. If this lockdown wouldn't have happened, I would have left the college by 15th May. So after thinking a lot, I have decided that I will keep posting till part 11.10. So 11.10 will be the last post of this blog. I feel quite sad saying this. But it has to happen either way. Two more blogs to go. And then we would officially say good bye to each other.

For now, I would take off because I am feeling a bit sleepy. Well, One last thing I would share, I have been having a lot of nightmares lately. I don't know why. And also I have decided to watch all harry potter parts once again to refresh my childhood and focus away from the distraction.

So bye friends, see you next time.

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